baby sally is born!!

Minutes passes by...
Hours passes by...
Days just gone like tt?
yes!! even years... right? 21 years of my life has gone=)
Not a time to sigh, to moan or even to cry for.. perhaps, i realised that time really flies, cherish every moment of my life!! enjoy my life!! love my family members!! love my friendsssss!!! n love the 1 im obsessed with!!! haha... basically, there's a pattern, im like always sick during my birthdays.. hmm, maybe too excited, tts why, haha..
i wanted to have 21 cakes this year, cos im 21 alr.. sounds a bit lame... well, due to my health concern, i didnt splurge to buy all 21 cake.. hmm, let me count den..
my 1st cake is on 13th march, where editorial ppl celebrated for me!! its was a creamy chocolate cake.. yummy!!
2nd cake, 25th march!! i had fever in e morning=( so at night i still went for my FPA meetin!! see, so passionate abt FPA.. anyway, it was a surprise for me from justin and pam they all.. haha=) its was a mango cake, great!! i love fruits anyway.. haha=) so touched!! haha, so tt was how i spend my last day of 20 years old!!
3rd cake, green tea cake, i bought for myself... ate it on my birthday with my mum.. haha 4th cake, strawberry cake, i bought it as well, shared it with wenxiu, it was also her birthday.. so cool, we had the same birthday.. but of course im a year older! as usual, we would go out with elaine... e echidnas had a celebration in holland V.. bcos im sick, tts y we decided not to go wala n drink.. in stead, we went to oglio, its beside wala... i had a healthy pick of veggie sandwich.. it tastes great!! suddenly remember wat miss lum said in Aussie, "cats and dogs will feel better after eating grass!" tts exactly wat i felt after eating the sandwich!! yummy! i think im turning vegetarian nowadays..
ok, 5th cake, which i haven eaten till now.. its a chocolate cake yao yao left in the fridge on my birthday!! n ever since tt night, she's not at home!! she has gone to her fren's house, so im all left alone!! lonely lonely=( increasingly, i cannot stand loneliness anymore, like, when yao yao not at home, i dun dare to slp at nite!! so i had been sleeping with lights for 4 days... and counting... haiz...
Sally had a pool-side party on 27th march, at jhoana's house... cool place=) i invited mainly indo frens for a gathering! that afternoon, i bought so many things that i cant even carry!! oh my!! help!! so guess wat, my arms r still arching till now=( i received so many beautiful prezzies this yr!! n ppl start to gif me earrings, necklaces... hmm, am i turning bimbo? i wonder... now it feels like my head is getting hollow!!
Well, currently getting really obsessed with a someone out there! Not a good thing though! hmm, i do believe that there will be somebody!! so lets just see den!!
elaine says im wifie!! just bcos i spent 3 entire days cleaning the house, doing laundry, cook and all... hmm, i dun wan to b a housewife!!
Finally, baby sally is born!! i planted it on 27 march 2008, around 11am plus.. yup!! so now got to look after baby sally.. as well as baby catti!!

AHHHH.. this is driving me crazy!!!

Seriously!!! i really think n feel that my council is like a dating society, which is totally against my wish for joining.. This is not what i want! i mean.. AHHHH, i really have no idea y a guy would like some1 for so long?? n i dun believe a guy would be so sentimental, esp a leo guy, who has been there like half a yr ago till now.. and im all out of wit to tackle him. haiz... wat the hell!!! i wanted to say leave me alone!! but its so rude to say that! or maybe i really should say that to draw a clear line between us. Anyway, im tired.

i think too much, yea?

I was trying to do IS, but i really can't think of a topic. Perhaps im too occupied. I was unpacking some of the things from my boxes, n its been a month since i moved.. well, i realised tt i seriously have too many clothes n too many shoes.. so, i have made up my mind not to invest in apparel anymore, at least not until im prepared to take care of more stuff. It does take up a lot of time to clean n maintain those stuff. Haiz, wasting my time.. now i know why my head is empty=(Anyway, elaine misses me!! n I miss elaine too!! she said this is a pretty photo.. haha, i never know i can look so sweet=) i love tt seal, from cin cin's house..
I miss huzi too, yesterday was the last time im seeing her in the next 4 mths. Shuyao went back, so im lonely again. argh!! While packing, i saw those pics and notes which reminded me of my childhood frens, then n now, its those unforgettable memories. I wonder what and how are they doing now. Time is so insignificant that it crawls pass without me knowing, and its normally too late when i realise its gone.
Was talking to qq just now. He had a accident!! Good tt he's alright, or else i... but his poor car had to be towed away. Guess tt he's pretty pissed n sad now. Den it reminded me of a book say that your car reflects yourself. There was this man who felt that his life was rather stranded, so guess wat, his type was flat. Another person who felt so aimless and had no vision in life, as expected, his front window was hit by a tree branch. hmm, so, wat does this say abt qq?? haix, perhaps i think too much. I got to learn driving this yr!!
I hate mozzie!! noisy, full of germs, itchy and irritating!!
oh, i found the present i bought for myself on Valentines' day. Its a lickable body moisture. haha.. comes with chocolate mint flavour. actually i dont like chocolate. well, well...
haiz, i saw a lizard... it was still quite small a few days ago, but now..
Prelim... i didnt take it seriously!! guilty.. k, study hard ba.. tts e onli thing i can do..
My birthday in 1 months time!! im suppose to book a chalet on the weekend before my birthday, but both sat n sun, i got to go to sch for IS revision lecture from 10 to 5!! hmm, ok lor, i love IS anyway.. so on my birthday, we gonna haf MATHS1 REVISION lecture!!! n its 10 to 5!!! wat the!! u know i dont really enjoy maths!! n its on my birthday!! haha.. well done!! n tt week, the onli day i got to go sch is on my birthday!! wah=) fantastic!!

ReProgramming!!

Sally is hurt! very painful!! had a blue-black on my leg! haiz. Still i feel hurt... MEN r idiots!@%#&^*! hmph! got to reprogram my brain and my thoughts.. let my wound heal soon.. so that i can rightfully focus on my exams!!

It didn't feel like new year, at all. probably bcos i couldnt be bothered with wats going on except me, myself n I.. or probably bcos daddy is not in spore. So, thats y im so lazy!!
Went to visit uncle tom today!! i had a great time playing with his kids. we stacked up blocks of wood. At first when the 5 yr old boy dragged me to play, i was still feeling a bit reluctant.. stacking woods didnt appeal to me. (boring)... still, i agreed to compromise=)
Actually, simple activities r the best! its those child's play which brings me back to who i really am.
These are pictures from my play!! i really miss performing! Hope i do get the chance to do a show again. Well, enjoying my carefree life rite now=)

I love this super sexy pic of mine!!

Yeah!! New year is round the corner, its gonna be a fantastic year ahead, im sure it will! Again, as usual, so many things happened. My life is just a roller-coaster ride, full of up and downs, sometimes even surprises and excitements!! Anyway, I just shifted house. A place where i can finally feel a bit more at home, more freedom and more sense of belonging. haha.. i guess now im really enjoying my life!Went to sentosa with Wenxiu and Elaine on sat!! Its another Echidna's outing... the weather was great for not wanting a tan and yet the gentle breeze sooth every tired muscle on me! Sally, as usual the very talkative echidna, was accounting her highly dramatic experiences lately.. haha.. its amazing how the 3 very different personalities can come toget to be such close and supportive friends=) perhaps its fate!! And wenxiu n me have the same birthday!! hmm, lets see, we will go wala wala again on our birthdays this year! its becoming more of a habit isn't it?? Anyway, this is such a nice n sexy pic!!Sally didnt buy any new year clothes this year. Perhaps i didnt feel the need to. moreover, i just moved house, i think i have too much stuff!! too much clothes alr, i muz stop investing in clothes! its heavy!! i moved house mostly by myself and alan.. so now, lots of muscles! arghhhhh... and i fixed my bed by myself too.. ugly muscle=(
last tues, i went to MGM in cheong sum!! hmm, i was super AA (attract attention) la.. i was late, cos i seriously couldnt get a bus, it was so super packed.. so when i arrived, wenxiu's event was doing the presentation.. guess wat? haha.. no 1 was listening to the presentation!! i could literally see and could feel the stares directing at me!! arghhh, so pai sei.. but after sometime, i got used to it alr.. haha=) my editorial department won the lantern making competition!! yeah!! i love tt camera lantern.. haha.. good job ppl=)
Ok!! after settling down after this new yr season, i muz study hard!! i need to get my distinction!! n yes, i got to complete my newsletter as well!! yeah, looks like i've got a plan for myself.. oh, n also, i muz move on!! no more qq.. haha..
its been a month after my play!! i suddenly miss all the ppl in my play, esp my director, glarie.. haven been seeing him for a month.. haha.. hmm, he is like so busy n im still holding onto his gift, lucky its not broken in e process of moving, or else, i will b dead.. will b having FPA meetin on e 11th, so yeah, looking forward to see every1!!

I love myself=)

Under immerse pressure these few days. i seriously felt like dying! Anyway, its over, i solved it! I have to keep on reminding myself that i love myself and i did nothing wrong. haha.
Well, i know dad loves me, but he doesnt accept me... He doesnt accept who i am, wat i wan to be, and thats y i dont feel the love. It is true that when i dont love myself, you dont love others. so, i have to love myslf!