Stress is another word for FEAR!!

Stress is a word which has been instilled in us ever since young. All those stress management lectures, anti-stress consultation and booklets or what so ever, is all rubbish to me! If we don't even know what is stress, then our minds wouldn't even subconsciously thinking about STRESS!! It is a word which we has given too much power to... Stress actually is just a fearful reaction to life's constant change! Stress=fear! so the time when im feeling stressed, i will have to think again, is there anything which im afraid of? what exactly is it that is scaring me!! perhaps, in that way, it does help to eliminate my fear! At the same time, i wont want to give away my power to stress, its me, who has the most power over myself=)

ExamS!!

Exam! exam n exam!! At least, i have finished 3 papers, another 2 more to go=)



Study late into the night
I can hardly see the light
Probably due to my poor sight
Visualizing my future less bright

Save me! Will ya knight?
And end my internal fight
On a war with too much fright
Which hinders my will to write
An answer not to their delight
That is definitely not right

But i tried with all my might
Till time came offsight
Sigh! It's such a tough flight
Which i embark to reach my height
Well, I better write something with more insight
And save myself in such a plight=)

wow=)

haha, sally is crazy!! i did some personality test.. just for fun=)

According to the Wedding Algorythm,
I Will Marry In: 4 YEARS AND 1 MONTHS

My ideal mate...
Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be more aware of their feelings. Avoid people who prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change. Get out there, expand your mind and others as you find your perfect match!

My idea of a good husband:
he loves me to death, I love him, he loves my children and they love him... He thinks I am wonderful, I think he is wonderful... He is responsible and reliable... He is passionate about me and makes love to me often... He gives.

What kind of Mum ?
YOU ARE GOING TO BE: "The MILF"

You're going to be the hottie mom that all the kids want to hang out with. You have a way of utilizing your homely hottness to ensure that your children and their friends play nice. Some of the sweetest memories of their childhood will be when you bandage their scrapes and cuts and kiss their booboo's. Enjoy this role, because it'll be a defining phase of your life.

high-school personality - Popular (nice)

You are the rare type of the populars. You are the one who treats everyone with respect, which is why you are well-liked. Way to be.

What kind of baby you will have?
The quizzy said i will have
a curious baby.. she's very smart, not to mention cute=)

e roller-coaster day!

8th Apr 08 is definitely one of the not so good days around. I had been through the emotional roller-coaster ride. Uncomfort left n entered me dozen times, even the love for myself has lost control over my emotions.
I was pretty much cheerful and lively in morning as I tried not to be late for revision class. and was quite successful! Revision class was fantastic! How I wished i can study in LSE itself. I've never learnt so much in local lessons as compared to what I have discovered for myself today! No wonder "there is no discovery like self discovery".. i totally agree! Perhaps Sally has a particular liking for non-Chinese way of conducting lessons! I truly enjoyed the lesson... I know not every1 can follow the lessons, but i can, except sometime my mind do wonder off to think abt some1.
Met alan for Lunch. He's a slow eater.. haha..
I cant believe Selva actually said that i wanted to change place bcos i wanted to see QQ... wah.. actually thats not the problem.. the problem is that his friends were all sitting around me! so embarrassing!! But,im over him alr!! or at least i think im over QQ now.. hopefully yea.. cos its seriously no pt.. i'm sure that we can be better frens=)
ok, forget abt e roller-coaster thingy... not in bad mood to write about that.

my random encounters=)

I think my baby died =( its so sad.. how can baby sally die? HOW~~~!!! WHY!!! it has maggot growing on it.. oh no!! haiz.. well, i still have baby catti, so though its not ok, but i love my baby!! ok, i'll see how den. I washed my burberry bag alr=) its uber clean now! wow.. anyway, think im watching too much shows yeah, i wan to get married soon!! ahh!! hehe.. thats a bit random. well... ok, 1 more month to exam!! i seriously need to do well!! OMG!! HELP!! im getting fat... im serious.. im increasing by an inch all around. ok, i decide to slim down, not on diet, but doing exercises!! so in 2 months time, im gonna b back in shape! slimmer thigh, getting back my firm butt n 22 inch waistline, also getting rid of flabby arms!! sounds great? yeah! way to go!! By the next time u see me, i will b back in shape=) oh yeah, met Nic on thursday, it feels good to meet up with old frens. n i feel that he has grown up!really!! from e way he carried himself n e way he behaved. wow, im like feeling hmm, proud of him? yeah, thats it, proud of him! haha=) he's so gentleman now! not like last time, where i had to literally take care of him all e time! alright, will get to see him soon, when he's out from army...

baby sally is born!!

Minutes passes by...
Hours passes by...
Days just gone like tt?
yes!! even years... right? 21 years of my life has gone=)
Not a time to sigh, to moan or even to cry for.. perhaps, i realised that time really flies, cherish every moment of my life!! enjoy my life!! love my family members!! love my friendsssss!!! n love the 1 im obsessed with!!! haha... basically, there's a pattern, im like always sick during my birthdays.. hmm, maybe too excited, tts why, haha..
i wanted to have 21 cakes this year, cos im 21 alr.. sounds a bit lame... well, due to my health concern, i didnt splurge to buy all 21 cake.. hmm, let me count den..
my 1st cake is on 13th march, where editorial ppl celebrated for me!! its was a creamy chocolate cake.. yummy!!
2nd cake, 25th march!! i had fever in e morning=( so at night i still went for my FPA meetin!! see, so passionate abt FPA.. anyway, it was a surprise for me from justin and pam they all.. haha=) its was a mango cake, great!! i love fruits anyway.. haha=) so touched!! haha, so tt was how i spend my last day of 20 years old!!
3rd cake, green tea cake, i bought for myself... ate it on my birthday with my mum.. haha 4th cake, strawberry cake, i bought it as well, shared it with wenxiu, it was also her birthday.. so cool, we had the same birthday.. but of course im a year older! as usual, we would go out with elaine... e echidnas had a celebration in holland V.. bcos im sick, tts y we decided not to go wala n drink.. in stead, we went to oglio, its beside wala... i had a healthy pick of veggie sandwich.. it tastes great!! suddenly remember wat miss lum said in Aussie, "cats and dogs will feel better after eating grass!" tts exactly wat i felt after eating the sandwich!! yummy! i think im turning vegetarian nowadays..
ok, 5th cake, which i haven eaten till now.. its a chocolate cake yao yao left in the fridge on my birthday!! n ever since tt night, she's not at home!! she has gone to her fren's house, so im all left alone!! lonely lonely=( increasingly, i cannot stand loneliness anymore, like, when yao yao not at home, i dun dare to slp at nite!! so i had been sleeping with lights for 4 days... and counting... haiz...
Sally had a pool-side party on 27th march, at jhoana's house... cool place=) i invited mainly indo frens for a gathering! that afternoon, i bought so many things that i cant even carry!! oh my!! help!! so guess wat, my arms r still arching till now=( i received so many beautiful prezzies this yr!! n ppl start to gif me earrings, necklaces... hmm, am i turning bimbo? i wonder... now it feels like my head is getting hollow!!
Well, currently getting really obsessed with a someone out there! Not a good thing though! hmm, i do believe that there will be somebody!! so lets just see den!!
elaine says im wifie!! just bcos i spent 3 entire days cleaning the house, doing laundry, cook and all... hmm, i dun wan to b a housewife!!
Finally, baby sally is born!! i planted it on 27 march 2008, around 11am plus.. yup!! so now got to look after baby sally.. as well as baby catti!!

AHHHH.. this is driving me crazy!!!

Seriously!!! i really think n feel that my council is like a dating society, which is totally against my wish for joining.. This is not what i want! i mean.. AHHHH, i really have no idea y a guy would like some1 for so long?? n i dun believe a guy would be so sentimental, esp a leo guy, who has been there like half a yr ago till now.. and im all out of wit to tackle him. haiz... wat the hell!!! i wanted to say leave me alone!! but its so rude to say that! or maybe i really should say that to draw a clear line between us. Anyway, im tired.